Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Day #14780 - Dyansty revisited

PROLOGUE ( YEAR :2001)

...I ask myself numerous times, why cant I adopt a Child and gift a deprived child what it deserves and myself the pleasure of having an answer to all those questions. Why can’t I make it possible for me to say …

“Yes…. our lives DID cross each others.”.
“Yes, That wasn’t your life…but I will give you one like mine”
“Yes. You will survive not only weeks/months/year…but YEARS of a better life, that you deserve”

Genetics? Who cares, if they are genetically different…I made one for them on my own!!! My only chance to defy what the nature built and what the human christened “Genetics”.

I am not the kinds who think one should have reasons to die for. No, I don’t want a better world when I die. I want it right now and right when I am alive. I want all this in this one life I have and which I live each day.

I say to myself what is it that I would have achieved at the end of it.
Not only would I “create” something better, but also I would create all that in front of my own eyes…in my own life and with my whole will. I would have chosen what I wanted to build.

I can then look at eyes of a whatever-year-old and say, “Yes, I could create not only my own but another human’s destiny.”

I could create a dynasty.

TODAY ( YEAR :2015)

What you just read above was my mumbling or rambling - whatever you call it in year 2001. I was single, young , twenty something and living in United States those days.  Blogs didn't exist then or I simply didn't know they did. So I wrote an essay in a word document and kept transferring it from one system to another, refusing to let it go away.  (Essay is now available in my earlier blog post as well - Dynasty- an essay)

14 years later, today I have the answer. 

I just admitted my "financially adopted" son into a prestigious college for 2nd year Engineering. I and my wife have been taking care of his financial needs of education since his seventh grade.

3 more years and he would have an engineering degree - the same one I procured 22 years before, and with that possibly a future that will give him and his family a getaway from poverty once and for all.

A different destiny than what it could have been.

Yes, I could create one.... 

Thanks John for coming in my life and in turn giving a "meaning" to my ramblings!!

I hope that soon it will be your turn.....

 

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Day #14642 - xRay of a "Ruminating" brain

Rumination - The act of thinking about something in a sustained fashion

 

Wikipedia also says - Rumination is the compulsively focused attention on the symptoms of one's distress, and on its possible causes and consequences, as opposed to its solutions

 

Good or Bad, I don’t know (or care), but this thought of “Shifting Gears” has been up in my mind since long. And when I say “Shift”, I mean shift of career and possible life (and lifestyle).

 

Yes – I have been “ruminating” for it for what seems “ever” now.  The topic is “Education” specifically in the social sector field. If there was something like Indian Education Service (IES) – that’s where I would like to “shift” my gears to! Just leave this damn urban corporate world and dive into rural grassroots.

 

From this urban jungle – the rural grass does look green..I mean extremely green!!

 

So here is the xRay of my brain-thoughts – Exclusively for anyone who cares to read

·         I am 40, it’s this the right time (to leave this corporate career)? Or should I wait for 5 more years? Or 10?....And do what….

·         Maybe “education” – Take an MA in Education and then jump into that field…..but…..

·         Is “Education” really my passion? What is my real passion? …or is this….

·         Is this just a mid-life crisis? …..could be…but then…

·         Why break this flow of wealth? All these thoughts are only enjoyable when the flow is there! ….But maybe I have enough….

·         Wait …Do I really have enough? I think I do…but then How much is enough?....

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Okay Reader – I think that’s it…. As you can see, I am really going thoughtless and speechless these days….So continuing blogging anymore today is detrimental to my non-existing reputation…so will close this without much ado…

 

-Mindless Me